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When John Prevost sails into his hometown on Cormorant Island, a short trip from northern Vancouver Island town of Port McNeill, a blank space in the streetscape where a four-storey brick building once loomed brings him joy.
乌鸦传媒淎s soon as the ferry came into Alert Bay, there was the residential school and I乌鸦传媒檇 always be angry inside.乌鸦传媒�
Prevost, 62, is a survivor of St. Michael乌鸦传媒檚 Indian Residential School.
The facility was built by the federal government in 1929 and was run by the Anglican church until it closed in 1975. But it loomed over the bay for nearly a century, becoming a dark reminder of colonial relations with Canada乌鸦传媒檚 Aboriginal peoples.
When the Namgis Nation razed the building in 2015, demolition was marked with a healing ceremony attended by First Nations leaders, church leaders, politicians and former students.
Prevost was not there but he does remember the first time it didn乌鸦传媒檛 loom over his arrival. He乌鸦传媒檇 brought a couple of friends up. 乌鸦传媒淲hen we came around the corner I was crying my eyes out 乌鸦传媒� 乌鸦传媒榣ook it乌鸦传媒檚 not there乌鸦传媒� 乌鸦传媒� it made my heart lighter.乌鸦传媒�
The space serves as a reminder, but much like that emptiness, his individual memories of the school and subsequent day schools, foster homes and group homes are shrouded in what he calls emotional blackout. Many memories are told to him. What he does remember is violence and alcohol abuse at home. Followed by abuse and violence at residential school, day school and foster care.
Prevost乌鸦传媒檚 Saanich studio apartment is now his nest and safe place, but Alert Bay is home.
What he knows of his family and childhood is learned second- and third-hand, sometimes from family in Alert Bay or family found over decades in the prison system.
He does remember being drunk at five, then the police came and took the five youngest boys, separating them into schools and foster homes.
乌鸦传媒淚 was in St. Mike乌鸦传媒檚 on the fourth floor 乌鸦传媒� just awful,乌鸦传媒� Prevost recalled. It was two or three years of whipping, slapping and avoiding. A couple of his older brothers were there, and they looked after him as best they could. They advised him if someone said 乌鸦传媒渃ome here乌鸦传媒� you run.
乌鸦传媒淚 did a lot of running.乌鸦传媒�
Two or three years later, he was moved to Vancouver, further removed from his roots, into a life of foster and group homes. It wasn乌鸦传媒檛 long after that he began his decades-long dance with incarceration.
By 11 or 12, Prevost recalled gathering the gumption to try and protect himself. For Prevost, foster home life included more slapping and being thrown down stairs. He reported the abuse to his social worker, telling the man they were beating him and not feeding him. The social worker believed the adults over the child.
乌鸦传媒淎s soon as he left, boom, down the stairs,乌鸦传媒� Prevost said. 乌鸦传媒淭hat乌鸦传媒檚 when I burnt their house down. I threw all this newspaper they had on their pool table and I lit it. I walked away, went back to my room, and I was hoping somebody would wake up so I wouldn乌鸦传媒檛 die with them.乌鸦传媒�
No one died in the fire.
Prevost got six months in a juvenille detention centre. 乌鸦传媒淪ix months turned into a year. I became a part of the furniture in the prison system up to, I don乌鸦传媒檛 know, 10 years ago.乌鸦传媒�
Prevost felt safe there. He discovered additional ways to numb the pain of his past 乌鸦传媒� cocaine and heroin among them. 乌鸦传媒淎nything to keep me from not looking at myself.乌鸦传媒�
Despite the haze of his growing addiction, he remembers a comfort in being surrounded by people like him 乌鸦传媒� people who felt anger and rage at the system. It乌鸦传媒檚 also where he met much of his family.
Removed from home at five he had to fight to return for his mother乌鸦传媒檚 funeral when he was 11. At 16, the system shifted Prevost to adult court and he wound up at Oakalla Prison (closed in 1979) on the Lower Mainland and surprisingly enough, that乌鸦传媒檚 where he ran into his brother Jeff. It乌鸦传媒檚 also where a guard remembered his dad, thrown in jail for speaking his own language, Prevost recalled.
While incarcerated he learned about Alcoholics Anonymous. The first time, Prevost was a teen looking to get out of his cell for a bit. 乌鸦传媒淚 went to a meeting and this old man was telling my story,乌鸦传媒� he said. 乌鸦传媒淲e all have similar stories in our disease.乌鸦传媒�
Meetings also helped him get out early. While he wasn乌鸦传媒檛 yet ready for healing, Prevost learned treatment existed and was an option 乌鸦传媒� one he eventually pursued.
While he still bears the marks of intravenous drug use, it乌鸦传媒檚 been 20 years since his last overdose. 乌鸦传媒淚 shouldn乌鸦传媒檛 be alive with all the addiction I went through.乌鸦传媒� Of 17 siblings (two sisters died at birth), four brothers remain. The others are dead of addiction, Prevost said, none of them would take treatment because of the associated stigma.
He also turned to family about three decades ago when he started doing a lot of doodling. While in Alert Bay for treatment, and with a little trepidation, he showed the drawings to his cousins. They were impressed with his early attempts and offered him tips and gave him pieces of their own work with the advice of 乌鸦传媒渃opy ours until you find yours.乌鸦传媒�
乌鸦传媒淪o I did, for two or three years I was copying theirs and all of a sudden I started seeing my own art,乌鸦传媒� Prevost said. Decades later it remains a tool for healing 乌鸦传媒� taming triggers that lurk every day.
Now an artist and a healer himself, Prevost has become a mainstay in places designed to help lift others. He乌鸦传媒檚 an active volunteer at AVI Health and Community Services and Our Place Society, leading a healing circle and sharing his experience.
While his work adorns walls across the region, it乌鸦传媒檚 just one approach to wellness. What has proved most helpful, and he looks forward to participating again, is a retreat for residential school survivors.
乌鸦传媒淭he first one I did was overwhelming,乌鸦传媒� Prevost admitted. 乌鸦传媒淭hirty-five of us in total, we all had our armour on when we first went there. They showed us this room where we乌鸦传媒檙e going to be doing our healing.乌鸦传媒�
Three big buckets stood in the middle of the room. He learned later they were for the tissues for their tears.
乌鸦传媒淩ight from the get-go, nonstop crying 乌鸦传媒� nonstop cried our eyes out. It乌鸦传媒檚 a good feeling,乌鸦传媒� he said. 乌鸦传媒淚t helped me go forward. 乌鸦传媒淚f I didn乌鸦传媒檛 do this treatment I乌鸦传媒檇 be with my brothers or I乌鸦传媒檇 be dead.乌鸦传媒�
Happily settled into his Saanich nest for the last four years, Prevost乌鸦传媒檚 walls are covered in art 乌鸦传媒� his and others乌鸦传媒� 乌鸦传媒� and photos. One piece is a portrait created for him by a friend. Crafted of smaller images, residential school and other dark times dominate the bottom corner of the work, slowly lightening as it crosses the face stretching into brightness at the other far corner. It乌鸦传媒檚 an image he uses to help explain residential schools to those who don乌鸦传媒檛 understand. He started life in that dark corner and works every day to maintain the light.
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