Clarence 乌鸦传媒楰at乌鸦传媒� Pennier乌鸦传媒檚 voice didn乌鸦传媒檛 waver on the phone as he talked about Kamloops and the 215 children乌鸦传媒檚 graves found on the former site of the Kamloops Indian Residential School. His voice didn乌鸦传媒檛 crack with emotion and he didn乌鸦传媒檛 choke up as he talked about his thoughts and feelings.

But make no mistake.

As a former student at Mission乌鸦传媒檚 St. Mary乌鸦传媒檚 Indian Residential School, married to a woman (Nancy) who was a student at that Kamloops school for 13 years, Pennier hasn乌鸦传媒檛 been able to stop thinking about the unfolding tragedy.

The 76-year-old member of the St贸:l艒 Grand Chiefs has a lot to say. He just struggles to say it.

乌鸦传媒淧art of the reason I don乌鸦传媒檛 get so emotional is because of the abuses I experienced in school 乌鸦传媒� physical and mental and spiritual and sexual abuses,乌鸦传媒� Pennier said.

乌鸦传媒淥ne of the things we learned in (residential) school was not to show our emotions, which is the wrong thing to do. But they were very strict in there. If you didn乌鸦传媒檛 get punished yourself, you saw other people being punished. You couldn乌鸦传媒檛 say anything and that乌鸦传媒檚 why it becomes a little harder for people to talk about things after they leave.乌鸦传媒�

Pennier said he went through plenty of therapy to get to the point where he could handle news like this without falling apart. For others who don乌鸦传媒檛 go through counselling, 乌鸦传媒渋t hits them like a ton of bricks when they find out things like this.乌鸦传媒�

Pennier was in Kamloops Monday, at the site of the tragedy, as part of Nancy乌鸦传媒檚 healing journey.

乌鸦传媒淪he probably knew some of the ones that are in there,乌鸦传媒� he said. Several organizations are working with the Tk乌鸦传媒檈mlups te Secwepmc to identify the remains, including the local museum and B.C. Coroners Service.

Pennier said it was part of the residential school experience for students to disappear, with fellow students left not knowing if the child ran away or how they died.

乌鸦传媒淧eople suspected things like this happened, but there was never proof of it. I think if they do the same at other residential schools they乌鸦传媒檒l probably find the same thing. Maybe not as large or to the same extent as this one, but they乌鸦传媒檒l probably find something.乌鸦传媒�

It乌鸦传媒檚 one thing to know and acknowledge that bad things were done to Indigenous children at residential schools, but when you see graves in a poorly-tended field, or see 215 little pairs of shoes on the steps of a building, it makes it a little less abstract, Pennier said.

乌鸦传媒淵esterday, after the ceremony to take the childrens乌鸦传媒� spirits back to our territory was ended, we saw a lot of cars waiting to enter the school grounds. Many were already parked and a lot of people were sitting in the arbour which holds a lot of people. So there is good coming from this exposure,乌鸦传媒� Pennier said.

乌鸦传媒淲hat乌鸦传媒檚 happening in Kamloops provides an opportunity for the people to learn about the history of this country regarding the treatment of our people, and how from an early time governments wanted to get rid of 乌鸦传媒榯he Indian problem.乌鸦传媒� There is a lot of talk about 乌鸦传媒榬econciliation,乌鸦传媒� but people do not understand what needs to be done to make things better between our societies.乌鸦传媒�

The Indian Residential School Survivors Society is offering toll-free 24-hour telephone support for survivors and their families at 1 (866) 925-4419. Alternately, you can reach out the KUU-US Crisis Line Society 24-hour line at 1-800-588-8717.

eric.welsh@theprogress.com
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